In The Spirit Of Christmas

In the spirit of christmas, I’m putting up a new blog over at http://www.bzijian.com

If anyone sees this and isn’t feeling lazy, do change your links

It’s official

It’s official. I have run out of reasons. Daraemon’s bag is empty liaoz.

Emotional Intelligence At Work

I had borrowed a book from the library, “Emotional Intelligence At Work” and it is a pretty insightful book, touching on a number of factors like self-awareness, managing one’s feelings and how to motivate oneself.

Very useful and a good read. There are also a number of exercises that are within the book that you can do daily to understand and have better control of your emotions.

Besides covering understanding more of the emotions of oneself, it also covers dealing with emotions when dealing with other people, for example, how to relate to another person on ideas, feelings or thinking, being able to have self-disclosure, assertiveness.

Very insightful read, and out of 5 stars, I would rate it 5.

I don’t even know…

I don’t even quite know how to explain any of it.

I sincerely have no idea why it is this way.

I really cannot explain it.

Just went out to eat

Just went tout to eat today. And got to eat along Bedok Road the pig liver mee and some of the chicken. It tasted not bad.

I learned quite an important lesson for today, that maybe I have always been trying to take shortcuts, however, not always that shortcuts are the shortest roads.

Like taking the long road is actually a shortcut whilst trying to take shortcuts is actually a longer road.

Quite a complicated lesson. I am thinking that it might be because that I kept thinking of very complicated things and made everything in such a huge mess. Or I had always been taking the wrong roads then pushing them to be right? Kinda weird though.

At times also, I think that maybe I realize things too slow. Or that some of the things that I am learning too slowly because of always trying to skip lessons. And becaue of this, I miss a lot of chances, sometimes even important chances.

I think that’s ok. Even though I have missed a lot of chances, as long as I move on, it will be good. Maybe what I am more afraid is that I don’t move on and become a harassment.

Lovely Night

I sit alone at night, in front of the computer, sleepless again.

I’m not sure what I have done, nor am I sure if there is any potential in that.

I still wonder about my future, what I am to be, what concept should I have, or what limits and space should I be in.

I don’t know.

At the same time, I am again saddened by myself for not having the capability to know it myself. Am I weak that I cannot do so myself? Yet, why is it that careful planning is important rather than hasty work? Why does it seem to me that all others around me are hasty for results from me?

What am I? Who am I? What frame am I to live in?

I don’t know. All I am conscious is of the fact that I am conscious, and therefore I seek to explore what is the truth. I am conscious that there are many lives around and all I did was to find an answer and develop myself accordingly.

What are these acts of defiance that I hold in my heart? And what is the third way mean to me? Why can’t I make sustained success in the things I do?

Is man dictated by what happens around or by what happens within?

Moments – April 2007 – Old Essay

It is heartwarming to know and feel that life at times happens not in whole stretches of time but things always happens in moments.

There are moments which we cherish within the heart and those that seems brighter than any other moments in our fondest memories.

A moment where you can see the vastness of a wide grassland or the first moment where you just entered a delightful touring place filled with sights you have never see, sounds which are different and new feelings felt in such quick moments.

There are moments by which you are with your friends, sharing the happy times of laughter, happiness and interests. These are by which you feel renewed and revitalized not knowing why or how but simply to just enjoy the moment.

Moments by which a difficult problem has arised but through help of friends and teachers’ guidance, a sudden enlightenment to the facts which has passed your eye come into view and pieces of the puzzle are complete.

Moments by which all circumstances, you have known how to act and you can go smoothly from one to the other.

Moments of which all things come into majestic view, and all unknowns cease to be false. Moments by which you know with clarity and this can wipe away any amount of false work undirected towards such clarity you have come to know.

It is almost as if to say that everybody wants to have such moments, yet it such moments only exist within the person. To chase for it is worthless, because such moments cannot be chased after.

All of it comes as natural result of what you are doing and wanting, from what you have known and done is what is possibly can be experienced. Things always have a larger view of what it is really and it is only within the person to experience and learn it to allow such moments to touch both the mind and the heart.

Life

Life is traumatic. And yeah, it isn’t real at all.

I was reading through Yaro Starak’s business life and sort of clicked with me. He does seem like the businessman who has good experience and some good aims about his lifestyle changes.

Quote

Let the thought dwell on the fact that knowledge does not apply itself. That our actions are not governed by knowledge, but by custom, precedent and habit.

Didn’t move

Haven’t let go.