How do you…

How do you open a safe that has no keyhole?
I didn’t realize that whatever that happened around me was because of it. Almost everything stemmed from just this extremely significant event in my life.
I really want to open this safe and at the same time, free myself so that I can begin living. Also why [...]

How to…

Damn it. How to talk to others. Things are going more and more ridiculous if I don’t talk.
I only can describe the situation as ridiculously out of control. Got way to save the whole bloody mess? Holy cow shit.

Till today

After so much time already, I still do not have the courage to face up to what I really am.
This guard is to protect others away from me. From the true nature of what I really am.
It would be much easier for others to deem me as a bad person, bastard or coward and be [...]

Archangel

Took a day of MC. In a pretty bad shape at the moment. Pretty tired mentally. Too many things happening.
Got a novel “Archangel” by Robert Harris. Archery next, hehehe. Can’t wait to shoot some arrows. And didn’t know that some novels were quite good. Can’t believe how many books I have read throughout the years.
Still [...]

Fleeting

A person’s achievements is but fleeting. And it is the same for beauty and it is always temporary and but only comes once in a blue moon.
And yet nothing can replace the void of a heart. Nor can anything give permanent peace to that of a troubled heart.
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The most difficult thing in life is just [...]

Damn

I think that I am incredibly silent and that if I don’t talk, any other person can misunderstand me easily. And to add to the terribleness of it is that I need to edit and prepare for what I wanna say always to give a good idea of it.
But work is work. Things that are [...]

Aw shucks

I have to make my own “basin”. Sigh.
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At times I do feel like that I am competent, and yet I know surely for sure that I am not and remind myself that I just ain’t such a competent person after all. Sigh.
Just too big headed at times I guess.
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Why did I bother to learn so [...]

Oh man…

Oh man. Very tired. Mentally, not physically. My head is still tired from lots of new things all around.
Very tired and confused. Bad combination.
What do I want from my job? Actually, truthfully speaking, I didn’t set for to want anything and just went in there just like that.
Pretty much lying sedated in my own comfort [...]

It’s still funny

It’s still funny that to accidentally make my sisters angry.
Especially the one which I always look up and know that she cares for me.

Step brothers

A good show, rating it 5 out of 5 stars. It’s very vulgar, with lots of very crude jokes in the movie.
I’m so getting a new phone when my pay comes in, most preferably a Palm phone with Palm OS. Windows Mobile OS is dreadful, very dreadful. My current phone is so broken with so [...]